Monday, December 21, 2009
In rememberence and a new attitude
In the fall of 2008 I lost my beloved Australian shepherd (Rhea) to cancer, it was a very aggressive type and I didn't see it coming, she was diagnosed and died within 2 weeks. I did a lot with this dog from competing in obedience and pet therapy, she was a great friend. Her 13Th birthday would have been on Dec 16Th. Lately she has been on my mind a lot so maybe writing this will help me have some closure on her death.
I don't deal well with grief, I still am not over my dad's death and that was over 20 years ago, or maybe I should say that I am do not deal well with sudden grief? I found out my dad had died when I was pulled out of school ( it was an accident, I don't talk about it much, it still makes me cry) and then of course Rhea was a sudden cancer.
I have lost family members in the past and they have been older and so expected, as well I lost my wonderful Siegfried cat to renal disease this past fall, this too was expected.
Life is too short to be unhappy, I moved to Lethbridge about 4 years ago, and I have not made enough of an effort to make friends and to be a member of the community, well if my past and sudden losses have taught me anything it is to seize the day and to do what you want to do, you may not get another chance.
So with that being said I am making more of an effort to gain friends and to get out being social again, I have had enough of being lonely!